Have I mentioned?

Life's pretty much screwed now.

Okay scrape that. Life is absolutely, terribly, extremely SCREWED UP now.

It's hard to try and keep up the optimism with each passing day.

I think no amount of chocolate pocky or peanut butter or icecream can cheer me up. Not at this moment.

Sorry, just let me be emo solo for now.

BIG FAT SIGH. ): ): ): ): ):

I have random rants.

1. I can't decide if it's good or bad to be temporarily unemployed.

2. I can't stand superficial guys. Can't believe what he said. Omfg.

3. It sucks to see people around me getting called up for interviews for universities and scholarships and whatnots, while people with shit results like mine can only pray and wait. Of course, I'm happy for my friends, but it just sucks to be waiting and waiting, not knowing what's in store for you.

4. Stupid Middlesbrough always save their best performance when it matters most eh. Just when I thought Man U's title hopes were given another boost with Arsenal drawing Liverpool, Chelsea went on to brush aside Man City, and Boro had to draw Man U. Hmmph. And with Vidic out for 3 weeks and Ferdinand a doubt, I'm starting to worry abt that 2nd leg with Roma damn it.

5. Why is it that I jogged a total of at least 12km last week, but I'm still not losing weight? Ah right, must be the overload of chocolate pocky, bnj's, peanut butter, gelare half priced waffles, Botak Jones.. Shit I'm feeling hungry at 2.30 am in the morning.

6. Finally, someone agrees with me that Joe Cheng's handsome. HAHAHA.

7. Oh, I think Ozzy on Survivor's hot too. So is Eric Bana, Batista, Cristiano Ronaldo, Adam Levine... Okay the list's too long hahaha.

8. Whenever we MJ with chips, luck's on my side and I can't stop hu-ing. But MJ with real money, and I keep losing zzz.

9. ):

10. I need a getaway. ASAP.

Okay, enough of random rants. Time to get back to the life of an unemployed bummer. HAHAHA.

Oh yes! Before I forget,

I sort of miss those school days ):

Whoopeedoo! It's been almost a month since the last post, I almost forgot my password while trying to sign in just now, lol.

Anyway, quite alot of things happened, but I'm a lazy person, so.. it got procrastinated.

1. Okay, obviously, A level results. I keep procrastinating the university applications, partly because I still have no idea what course interests me, but more imptly because I think no university wants students with shit results like mine. I can't stand ppl who say they have shit results when actually they get a few As and Bs and go oh no which course should I choose my results suck! Seriously, just shut up and get lost. But aunty cheryl keeps hurrying me to rmbr to apply lest I forget and the deadline comes and goes, so I shall think abt it a little more and apply asap.

2. Oh, luckily I stayed up till 6am the other night, or morning I should say, to catch the midweek matches, cos Man Utd are top of the table right now after they beat Bolton (: Ronaldo's bloody brilliant with his free kicks. And now Man Utd are on top, 5 pts ahead of 2nd placed Chelsea who just beat Arsenal, after they beat Liverpool 3-0. Not that Liverpool deserves to lose by such a big margin, but Man Utd played really well, so (:. Talking abt BPL, I can't believe from next season onwards Starhub users can't watch Champions League matches anymore, cos Singtel's won the bid to broadcast them, so we have to subscribe to MIO tv! what nonsense la, I think we should all just boycott it and go and watch the matches at some coffeeshop with all the bengs and uncles, atmosphere inclusive.

3. Work has been alright, but some of them are quitting come end March, I wonder if I should too. I really enjoy working at the airport cos of all these different ppl you get to meet, the polite English ppl and cute Italians haha and friendly Aussies, and Japs and Koreans too. Singaporeans of course, always add a sense of familiarity cos I don't worry abt pronouncing my '-th's clearly I just use 'la's and 'lor's knowing they'll understand. One of them was actually flying to Manchester to catch the ManU-Bolton game live, much to my jealousy, haha. Notice I don't mention one type of ppl I enjoy meeting, sometimes they really piss me off when they shout (more like HOLLER actually) across the shop to their friends for passports and whatnots, talk so loudly as if I'm deaf when I'm standing right in front of them, and quarrel with me over some stupid things. But other than them, work's been tolerable also because of all the familiar faces like the delivery boys and the brand promoters who're quite funny and SOME of the aunties, too.

4. By the way, here are two very, individually, thrifty (i.e kiam siap HAHAHA) ppl-

But when you put them together, you get this-

- a whole lot of eating out, spending more money on food than anything else. Hahaha. That's why we're best of friends, right?

5. I love eating nuts so much, my dad says I'm nuts. I can have some peanut breakfast bar before going for work, come home from work and have peanut butter bread, followed by sugar peanuts, and not get sick of them, lol. I even love peanut butter flavoured ice cream (if they don't have chocolate mint or smth, that is). But no I'm absolutely sane okay.

And chocolate pocky & peanut butter everything always save the day (:

My brother recently bought this pair of dumbells that weigh 2 kg each and they are surprisingly heavy. Shh but I've been secretly taking them out from his room to use every night when I'm waiting for my hair to dry from my shower after work, my arms are seriously aching HAHAHA.

Sometimes I purposely knock off abit later than 11pm, stroll to the arrival room to clock out, get a cup of ice blend from Coffee Bean before going to return my airport pass, so that I get to take the company cab instead of having to pay for my own transport home. I feel so guilty hahaha. But then I still prefer Starbucks to Coffee Bean, just that t3 doesn't have Starbucks, so Mattea and I agree that we just have to settle for a not-so-nice substitute, hurhur.

The other night I had a nightmare (okay a dream maybe) about the release of the results. I dreamt that the tcher in charge called me to take my result slip and he gave an exclamation of surprise and I saw that there were four '1's and one '2' and he said this year produced many surprises. And then I rmbr pinching myself to check that I wasn't dreaming and for a while I really thought that those were the real results, only to wake up and find that I was indeed dreaming, lol. Since when were the grades in numbers anyway, hmm. Bottomline is, I AM FREAKING DREADING GETTING THEM BACK ):

And this is abit late, but I'm damn happy that Tottenham won the Carling Cup instead of Chelsea, I just don't like Chelsea. I also hope that Reading won't get relegated this season. Oh, and I think Real Madrid's keeper Casillas is cute. And Lyon's Benzema is really good, I actually panicked abit for Man U's defence everytime he got the ball the other day when they played. Oh and everytime I serve a customer decked in a Tottenham jersey, holding a Republic of Ireland passport, I have a strong urge to ask, 'Hey are you a Robbie Keane fan? Cos' I am.' hahaha. Just like how I have to control my excitement whenever I serve a Man U fan, lol.

I'm so craving for a sushi buffet, and chocolate pocky, and peanut butter everything, and chocolates, and icecream, and bread, and cake, and cookies,and home-cooked dinners, and pasta, and..... zzz.

Now, as much as I'm a 101% Manchester United fan, which means I'm elated that Arsenal dropped points at Birmingham and Man U cut their lead to 3 pts after their 5-1 thrashing of Newcastle, I feel really sorry for Eduardo. Horrific injury that not only ended his contributions for this season, but perhaps also threatened his career in football. It's amazing he refuses to blame Martin Taylor for his broken foot, too.

Been making full use of my many off days from work to shop, eat, and catch up with everybody, which means spending more money when I'll probably earn a meagre amount this month. Not that I'm complaining though, cos as yc said, "Aiya, it's the company that matters the most what!" (:

And the thought of the A level results going to be released soon just scares the shit out of me, I get nightmares every night ): Last night, Fiona and I went for our usual jog at the reservoir, and after that we relieved our childhood on the seesaw and the swings, which was awesome. We sat there till abt 9.30pm and talked abt nothing in particular; funny how the last time we had a go at the swings after a jog was abt a week before the A's and there we were, worrying abt the A's. This time we were worrying together on the swings again, albeit abt the release of the results.

And yet, in spite of everything, I'm trying to be happy.

I'm so glad that the muttons're back on 98.7, they nvr fail to make me laugh in the middle of the night (:

Man U are up against Lyon, first leg, tmr morning. I'm gna be really optimistic abt the result, after they dumped Arsenal out of the FA Cup 4-0. On the other hand, Arsenal are up against AC Milan, doesn't look like an easy match. Sorry Calvin, but yre one of the rare Arsenal fans I know, hahahahaha.

For the bouquet, movie, damn filling dinner, talk at the esplanade rooftop, and the ride back to Bedok, thanks, really.

But somehow, it just didn't feel right.

And sometimes, truth hurts the most.